It is really frustrating. Having nothing to do but being completely stressed. And the thing causing you stress, you have no control over it. Absolutely none. And you are forced to just sit and wait. Passively waiting while the stress eats away at you. Picking off the fleshy parts first, they are the weakest. And you overhear the decisions that determine your fate, yet you have no control of them. They are not yours, but they impact every fiber of your being. And my eyes begin to water and the juice in my brain leaks out, slowly one drop at a time. And you can’t stop it. It doesn’t matter that I live in the desert and it hasn’t rained, really rained in years.
color and chaos
color and chaos 